Unite

this is a place that has become apart of my heart. i allow God to throw me so far out of my comfort zone, i worship God with all that i am, and i take the knowledge of those around me and let God change my heart and motivate me for action. this is my new home. its awesome when you find a place your comfortable being uncomfortable in.

Poem 10/22/11 (first one in a long time)

I'm so fed up with who i see
this person, these thoughts they are not me
yet who i am let them into my mind
slowly they changed my heart and my eyes
i stand here now ashamed and strayed
i just want to become the girl YOU made
these thoughts and this focus only adds to flesh
let me find meaning before i lose the rest
the rest of me, the girl with YOUR heart
the rest i find, only in YOUR arms
loneliness is bitter but YOU are sweet
i will never get up from my knees
here i will stay with one thing in mind
the hope that YOUR presence will someday be mine
not looking around waiting to see
but being okay with it just being me
God YOU are worth all of my love
please open my eyes to what YOU'VE put in my cup
i am unworthy yet always loved
i know this by the death of YOUR Son
no other man can define my worth
forever and always i will do YOUR work

so in chapel Travis talked about how God gives each of us what we need for each day, and how when we take our eyes off of what we have, and look at others, we become discontent.
ive been doing this way too much lately. and theres lots of influences and reasons why, but its all on me, im responsible for how i react to what is given to me. im so sick and tired of feeling like this. because HE knows what i need to serve HIM for the day, why would i question it, or want more, or even less? idk i just cant stop thinking about it. there's no way i can do this without God. but theres also no way id ever want to do this without God. so win win. so to those readers, look at what Gods given you, and DO SOMETHING with it. and its okay to look at what HE's given others too, only if your looking to encourage them toward fruitfulness, if not, don't force dissatisfaction on yourself. you have a reason to be joyful. God put something inside you that connects with something HE's given you today, don't let anything ruin that. its not worth it. your eyes wander easily, but it takes training to keep them on JESUS. i'm refreshing my heart and my mind, and re-training my eyes. and its already exciting me.

Joyfully Accepting Confiscation

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ANTHEM message 10/14

Hebrews 10:32-36

New International Version (NIV)

³² Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering. ³³ Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. ³⁴ You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. ³⁵ So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

³⁶ You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

theres a time in your relationship with JESUS where you stop and realize how beautiful it really is to be seen as a christian, and when that happens, let it motivate you to never stop becoming more and more like HIM.

Unite 10/10/11

wow. just another reminder of how much i dont deserve what God gives me.
it was kind of a hard night, but HE was in that place. and HE spoke to me, when i didnt deserve it.

Send out YOUR light and YOUR truth;
let them lead me;
let them bring me to YOUR holy hill
and to YOUR dwelling!
then i will go to the alter of God,
to God my exceeding joy,
and i will praise YOU with the lyre,
O GOD, my GOD,
why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
hope in God, for i shall again praise HIM
my salvation and my GOD.
Psalm 43:3-5

"God did not create us to be comfortable
and God has better things to do than make us comfortable"

YOU are the love i need

there's no place id rather be than here in YOUR love
set a fire down on my soul
that i cant contain
that i cant control
i want more of YOU GOD

another one of my passions.

"a photograph is a portrait painted by the sun"

"she glances at the photo, and the pilot light of memory flickers in her eyes"

"it is one thing to photograph people. it is another to make others care about them by revealing the core of their humanness."

"Sometimes I do get to places just when God's ready to have somebody click the shutter."

"My portraits are more about me than they are about the people I photograph."

"I didn't want to tell the tree or weed what it was. I wanted it to tell me something and through me express its meaning in nature."

The strongest type of love is the kind where

one heart striving to be like JESUS meets another
when 2 people have the same God,
they have the same heart
they have HIS heart

"fire doesn't die because it wants to"

This quote was said at Unite.. and it really got me thinking about the importance of obedience. and how when you are obedient its enough to keep you going. you might not be feeling God, but your fire doesn't go out because of something as human as a feeling. so when you cant feel God, don't give up, the fire inside you can still build as long as you feed it. and when the feeling or desire comes back, it'll be that much more overwhelming. maybe you need to be refined, and the bigger fire you build, the more you become like JESUS through it.

keep doing work.

i think all christian men should read the 9th chapter of Just Do Something.

Restore us, O LORD God of hosts!
let YOUR face shine, that we may be
saved!

nothing's gonna take Your praise out of my mouth
As long as I shall live,
As long as I shall live,
'Cause He's a great God.
He's a great God.

You are my love and all of my life
You are the love i need

remind my soul i am YOURS
i am forever YOURS

open my eyes to see all that you made me
-reveal