communion

It's like I'm always hungry for HIS body. But when It comes the time for me to reflect on myself, and realize why i even get to eat HIS body, it becomes extremely hard to swallow

hold me to this

I'm ready. To take this on. I don't care how much I have to shoulder.

I don't care if it's awkward, or hard, discouraging, or hopeless.

Because it can also be life changing, effective, encouraging,

hard, better, meaningful, amazing. Why leave his eternity up

to a few comments. Comments that will be controlled and manipulated

by the devil. Why not show and say something that only proves

JESUS. I don't want to leave it up to him. The fact is, I need to

do something in order for something new to happen. And I want

something new to happen!
October 13, 2010

Quotes

"i think the saddest part of getting so consumed with music that has nothing to do with God, is that thats the melody thats going on in your heart all the time."

"God always connects our relationship with Him to our relationships with others."

-FRANCIS CHAN-

"be the spark forsake your pride"

"ill give you all i have left, a strained outstretched hand"

-THE BEAUTIFUL REPUBLIC-

from the fool that fell for you

I think sometimes I forget how lucky I am. How much God loves me. how much I took and take for granted, even though I don’t see it yet. I forget how God supplies what I need. I just looked back on something, something that made me feel amazing, loved, beautiful, but something I ended giving up, but I couldn’t even focus on the fact that I didn’t have it anymore. All I could focus on was how God still made me feel amazing, loved and beautiful, and I didn’t even notice. Sometimes what you give up isn’t a sacrifice at all, because really, if you do it because your obeying JESUS, then He’ll replace those worldly worth’s with some that give so much more truth. Sometimes I takes looking back on what you had, to see what God has really given you.

11/21/10

Poem 11/18/10

all the ways you messed with my head
turned and twisted the truths I knew
my heart was fragile, your schemes perfected
knowing which darkness could blacken my light
my lack of knowledge allowed light to diminish
my naïveness thought it was still there
you take mistakes and turn them into character
numb to grace but never not aware of it
your expectations were low and easy to please
left me falsely believing I had achieved
your opportunity arose October ninetieth
the night I hid broken, with nothing to believe
you took it and ran, I did nothing but follow
nothing I thought yet it took everything I knew
throwing me into things I thought would prove worth
your words in my head convincing me I was dirt
a new belief became of it, one with no hope
yet it strung me along because I thought it would work
a tiring cycle of empty pleasure and tears
somehow I ended up writing this here
I recognized your wickedness, deceit and incompetence
you expanded my weakness, made me succumb to your power
but I stand here now with incomparable strength
as you tremble below me because you have nothing I fear
you see, your words only worked before I knew truth
JESUS changed this person you once used
for the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing,
but to us who are being saved, it is the power of God.