Poem 10/22/11 (first one in a long time)

I'm so fed up with who i see
this person, these thoughts they are not me
yet who i am let them into my mind
slowly they changed my heart and my eyes
i stand here now ashamed and strayed
i just want to become the girl YOU made
these thoughts and this focus only adds to flesh
let me find meaning before i lose the rest
the rest of me, the girl with YOUR heart
the rest i find, only in YOUR arms
loneliness is bitter but YOU are sweet
i will never get up from my knees
here i will stay with one thing in mind
the hope that YOUR presence will someday be mine
not looking around waiting to see
but being okay with it just being me
God YOU are worth all of my love
please open my eyes to what YOU'VE put in my cup
i am unworthy yet always loved
i know this by the death of YOUR Son
no other man can define my worth
forever and always i will do YOUR work