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GOd is so amazing when he presents soemthing to you in form of a burden, but it turns to be this oppertunity that has so much responsibility attached that its scary to think about. but the more you dig into the more you realize how much its a blessing. who am i that God can trust me with this? im ashamed how much i was dreading it, it just shows how near sighted i am when it was first presented to me, because GOd really has way more to this than i could imagine.

1/5/10

chains of vanity and lust

helplessly determined

blindly entering a world with no cause

temptation only viewed as opportunity

BLIND SO BLIND

see the scars

blood runs down onto the floor

the world deaf to the screams of the soul

it teaches hope and love to all

when it fails you simply brush it off

naive to the cuts and frail bones

your life lived in chains

do what you want and never realize

the grips getting tighter

bruises and scabs cover your wrists

but your living the life your told to live

slowly bleeding but blind to the wounds

and makes fun of Christians in movies and cartoons

wondering why they never reached out to you

content with living life as your told

no Christian ever showed you a life worth leaving the old

BLIND SO BLIND

were all too busy with something useless

complain about the lives were told to live to the fullest

we wonder why people cant see

Christians that compromise and argue mindlessly

where is JESUS in those people

show the world our God is begging

its full of pride and neglect of humanity

we need to show it our absolute humility

those people are bleeding because we are failing

we will not defeat darkness with attitudes of flesh

only with JESUS will this red world be fixed.

OPEN YOUR EYES.

7/11/10

I feel like my heart is glowing, but everything surrounding it is dying...slowly.
Ash falling choking out my breath,
How can a spark of life cause so much death?
This glowing heart needs to move and spread throughout this darkness,
Fear of losing this light paralyzes it's expansion,
The weight of ash takes over the lightness of freedom,
Everything sinking...
Please don't disappear,

persevere through the heaviness of the dark,
Don't let this heart go,
I can be so much more than this

5/11/10

BITTERNESS PRIDE EVIL AND EASE

why do these things keep you away from me?

YOU are my heart, i long for yours

my messengers fail, come up short

i almost have your heart, i weep for your soul

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU! why cant you hear me?

i thought satan was beneath my heal

yet many accompany him on that level

I WANT YOU I WANT YOU! i love every single part of you

sadly enough i dont have a strong pull

satan's lies get in the way

takes your flesh's desire and throws it in your face

im not what you want

but i will beg for you, for your to be in my arms

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

i cant say it enough

nothing else matters

let it all go

look in MY eyes I will never fall short

come home

i love you

-JESUS

7/27/10

[[i just rewrote the lyrics to tonight by fm static]]

i remember the times we spent together all those drives

we had a million questions all about our lives

we would park and talk still everything was right

i wish you were here with me....tonight

i remember the days we spent together were not enough

we would always try and cook cept we'd always mess up

never thought not having you here now would hurt so much

tonight IVE fallen and i cant get up

i need your loving hands to come and lift me up

and every night i messed up you would help me up

and remind me God is holding me. holding me.

holding me tonight.

i remember the time you told me about the life youd live

and all those things you said that night that just couldnt wait

i remember the car you would drive me in

and the rides we would take

all the times we spilled our soda and stayed out way too late

i remember the time you sat and told me about your JESUS

and how not too look back even if noone believes us

when it hurts so bad sometimes not having you here

i sing...

tonight YOUVE fallen and you WONT get up

i give my loving hands to come and pick you up

but every night i miss you becuase its not enough

its the world thats holding you. holding you. holding you tonight

i sing...

tonight YOUVE fallen and im begging you now

to come and run with me towards something we once found

and every night i miss you i will just look up

and pray that God is holding you. holding you. holding you tonight.