how do you make being a christian look so easy?

oh man, it is so far from easy. idk where to start. theres times when the situation is easy, but IT is always hard. and it will always be hard when i think it has anything to do with me.. but when i remember that it is all for God, and think about what HE expects and promises me, thats when it feels... not easy, but worth it. i can see how it looks easy, thats probably becuase its hard to feel what someone else does.. the closer i get to JESUS the more my heart beats like HIS.. the more it hurts to do ministry but the more necessary it becomes. it also becomes harder to hide your sin.. which results in the act of giving it up becuase now that you have God inside you, you become this person that wants evil but knows whats right. when you let the Holy Spirit control you, people see God in you more, but it is no where near easy.